Oftentimes, after each relationship, we feel lost, not knowing when and how to pick up the pieces of something built on expectations but mercilessly destroyed by disappointment.
Where to go then, most of us know not.
But some of us have an idea.
A life lived in the past is a cage that traps us from the gifts of today and tomorrow.
Silence is an escape but rarely a refuge.
Bitterness and hatred is a curved blade. When these are inflicted, it is ourselves that bear the pain.
So expect the worst, yet hope for the best.
Expect being deceived again. Expect hurt. Expect suffering and pain.
Yet never fail to see that beyond all that lies transcendence.
For every encounter that ends, we are left with that familiar emptiness that starts as a small spark. We may fan its embers into flames. Or we could pay this emptiness no heed, pick up the pieces, put them together and see the bigger picture.
We are not left empty. We are and should be left fulfilled. What's left is a number of even more parts of us that lie undiscovered. Parts of us that can make us better and stronger people who can handle trials such as these in ways we never knew we could.
There is a map for lost lovers, but like a mystery, the number of steps we take and the direction to which we should take these, lie hidden in that chaotic, disorderly circumstance called Relationship. Discovery lies upon every argument, every heartache, and every separation.
A journey begins with but a single step. And so to reach that goal and feeling of completeness, we must begin with understanding ourselves.
by Nat Casuela
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3 comments:
There must be something in life that makes us move on despite what happens in whatever relationship we're in. and i agree. there is transcendence. and that thought is what keeps most of us moving. the hope that there will be something better that comes after every heartbreak.
you hit the truth and the clarity you have is what most of us strive for. :)
Yup! Agree! we really have to go and move on. *sigh* Life stinks sometimes but we can manage to get up if we put our heart to it! You go gurl! Lez drop the baggage & fly!
my first love ended in a disaster, MAJORLY...he left me for reasons that are way beyond me...he simply said that our relationship can't work because of my busy schedule... but don't get me wrong, i tried to make up the lost time that we had... and yet, it FAILED... i was definitely hurt... and broken...
i am now in my second relationship and i admit, this one's definitely better... i can say that i truly love him and he loves me too... but he is a bi, and i am... gay. he's had relationships with girls before and i can say that he is still open to heterosexual relationship... and you know what i mean... if ever there comes a time (hopefully not) that a girl would come along his path, who would he choose? would he choose me with all the love that we shared? or would he dump me in the garbage and take that girl especially since he is still hoping to have a child of his own... aargh!!! i can never accept that... i don't want to lose my beybi, my love, my Noel... i love him so much that all i want is for us to spend our lifetime together... but i also want to give him that satisfaction of having his own son... WHAT WILL I DO?
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